To wake at dawn with a winged heart


Video: Unconditional 💛 – Mr Perlman (Michael Stuhlbarg) and his son, Elio (Timothee Chalamet) in Luca Guadagnino’s Call Me By Your Name.

“Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself. But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires: To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love; And to bleed willingly and joyfully. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving; To rest at the noon hour and meditate love’s ecstasy; To return home at eventide with gratitude; And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.”

The Prophet, Kahlil Gibran

Risky Routes

Bit of a break from my socials – my agent deciding to close books set off a little introspection as I took a moment to consider the path ahead. Think I’ll stay on these risky routes; keep following my instincts. Looking for an agent who’s good with that.

Onwards and upwards 🪷

Video above: Terence Trent D’Arby follows his creative instinct

…as it looks to you

Water Lillies (Claude Monet, 1919)

“When you go out to paint, try to forget what objects you have before you, a tree, a house, a field or whatever. Merely think here is a little square of blue, here an oblong of pink, here a streak of yellow, and paint it just as it looks to you, the exact colour and shape.”

Claude Monet

“Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”

I recently watched Nyad. Annette Bening, Jodie Foster, Rhys Ifans and the gang give wonderful performances in this astounding story about the marathon swimmer, Diana Nyad, who in her 60s decided to reattempt a 110 mile open-ocean swim she had failed to complete in her 20s.

A quick read about the actual Diana Nyad reveals a controversial character, particularly in regard to the legitimacy of some of her claims and achievements. I had to think about this before posting – I don’t want to promote exaggeration or dishonesty.

However, I decided to share this blog because, firstly, the film is genuinely enjoyable, well crafted and uplifting.  Secondly, the story centres on a person who, well beyond her prime (though I wouldn’t dare suggest this to her) jumped back into an unforgiving ocean, the home of sharks and deadly box-jellyfish, believing she could swim for three days straight to achieve her goal. Whether all the ratifying technicalities were observed or not, the attempt, in and of itself, is simply awe-inspiring. Here is someone who backs her sentiments up with action:

“I just want to say three things. One, never, ever give up. Two, you’re never too old to chase your dreams. And three, it looks like a solitary sport, but it takes a team.”

U.S. swimmer Diana Nyad, 64, points towards Florida before her swim to Florida from Havana, Cuba

My efforts to forge a career as an actor come with challenges that often seem insurmountable. I’m grateful for people like Diana Nyad who charge into the unknown, shine their light brightly from way over there and beckon us forward. 

“Whatever your Other Shore is,
whatever you must do,
whatever inspires you,
you will find a way to get there.”

– Diana Nyad

Ps. The title of this post comes from the poem, The Summer Day by Mary Oliver, strongly referenced in the film and seemingly a source of inspiration to the actual Diana Nyad.